I appreciate your honesty and you have my approval, but let me clear some things up for you.
We have two different deaths in our games: Playerkills/Execution or just death. Playerkills/Executions means that when your character is killed he is gone for good like in real life. This only happens if someone places a hit on you...etc. We also have just death. This means that if you get into an unplanned gang shootout or get hit by a car you character is sent to the hospital.
New Life Rule means that when you just get a plain death you don't remember what caused you plain death unless someone who witnessed it tells you.
Example: You are a store clerk. A robber comes in an attacks you with a knife and kills you in the process. You don't remember who, why, or how they killed you unless someone who saw it tells you.
Random Death Matching means just running around shooting people or hitting people with cars for no roleplay reason. If you do this you will probably get banned.
Good luck getting in, I like seeing some new faces and I'm sure if you just read the rules you'll learn everything pretty fast. You have my approval but you need at least 3/5's majority of the admins.